Wishing a very happy new year to all.
I always enjoy the new year. I like the thought of a fresh start and being able to reflect on what’s occurred and where I’m going with my life.
In my twenties I placed a lot of pressure on myself to achieve my goals. Every year as January arrived I would be hung up on New Years resolutions and I would often find myself disappointed come the middle of January when I had usually failed the majority of my list. The rest of the new year would always continue in a negative, defeatist fashion. Resulting in me chastising myself for all my failed attempts at becoming the perfect person that I was pushing myself to be (whatever that was anyway?).
I am now working my way through my thirties. I have started to lighten up and give myself a break. Becoming a mum (or dad for those of you reading this) changes your mindset massively as I’m sure many of you will agree. Life’s priorities change and past insecurities tend to take a back seat.
In the past my thoughts would be about how I was such a failure for munching on the leftover Christmas chocolates a week into new year 😱. Now my thoughts tend to be more along the lines of, so what ? ….. I ate it…..It made me smile….does it really matter ? 🤷🏻♀️ Or, will the world end if the housework isn’t done everyday ? If I sometimes make mistakes along the way or take the wrong path a few times is it really a big deal 🤔?
2016 was a tough year for me personally. Early into the year a tragedy occurred that made it very difficult to see the good in the other things going on in my life. It knocked my world off its axis. I knew things would never be the same again. 2017 needed to come around fast. I knew that a new year would not heal any of my pain or change the past but I still felt that 2016 was not a good place to be. The sooner it was over the better as far as I was concerned.
And so here We are on the other side of 2016. A new year, new start and time for reflection. This time around and for every future new year I have, I am taking a new approach. I really don’t care about failed gym memberships…… does my bum look big in this? ……. will I ever become ?…………
I’m no longer interested in these unhelpful thoughts.
I will concentrate on living each day. Living in the here and now. Loving and enjoying my family. Being more mindful and grateful for all that I have in my life today, here and now.